Sunday, December 30, 2007

Did you know....

that I WON the "impossible quiz?" Yep-you read correctly. Although I didn't get ALL of the answers right, I got the most. YIPEEE!! HORRAYY!! I can't wait to see what my prize is. They don't just give ya old junk that you wouldn't want-S.F. gives GREAT PRIZES! That made my day. -Just wanted to be sure you knew.

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Christmas success

Hello loyal readers. I hope your Christmas went well. Did you sing Happy B-day to Jesus? We do that sometimes. What? My kids are 6 and under. Presents were wrapped and food was prepared and we arrived to each destination safely. The van was acting up but I think a little Heet did the trick. My grandma Belvas ham was the etible highlight. My Making Memories Carousel and stacker, my camera, and the huge crock pot grandma Ruth got me were my gift highlights. But my fave gift of the year is usually my husbands gift. I have gotten a piece of jewelry every year thus far and this year we got into quite the tiff Christmas Eve. He went especially overboard and apologized quickly, presenting me with a five diamond necklace and earring set! He wasnt immediately forgiven-the cut was deep-but it certainly helped! The kids were overdone-as usual-and had many favorites! We have one more Christmas event at my moms this Sunday. We have to wait for my Vet sis to get in from K-State. I still have a gift for Gina and her daughter-and then we'll be complete! I am preping for homeschool and cleaning up the aftermath. I am duplicating my published CD calender for a January class at Scrappin Time and there are a few things I'd like to send for possible future publication. So-it seems the year will be ending busy! What was your favorite time this holiday? Leave me a comment so I'll know. I don't have a prize to give you-but you'll be in my prayers!

Until next time........

Thursday, December 20, 2007

The suspense is killing me....

Does anyone know Debbie from Scrap Funattic's nickname? It's the only answer I am not sure of in the "Impossible Quiz!" If I don't win one of these challenges I don't know what I'll do! Gah.

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Home School

We have moved out of the district where my son currently attends Ruth Clark Elementary. Although we dearly heart his current teacher, previous teacher and all other staff, it is against the district policy we attend and he will leave at semester. It about one second to decide on proceeding with home school, as I feel very led to do so. A much appreciated friend from church has been successful at home schooling her 3 youngest for years, and is kind enough to show me the ropes-pray for me not to hang myself with them! I am very excited, have our schedule made out and am fairly confident. I didn't realize the semester ended Wednesday-so we'll be putting a rush on it!

....still not finished with my gifts-niether the ones I'm making or the ones I'm buying. I'll be working diligently! Christmas cards are going out-if I don't have your address, e-mail me now ( or you'll have to wait til next year!

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Happy Birthday to....

HOLLAN! My 'baby' turned 2 today! We had previously celebrated with a party on the 2nd. Because my sister and I were due on the same day, Styker and Hollan are very close-so they had a party together. It was 2-2-2, 2 boys turning 2 on the 2nd. But that was then-and now it's official. We grabbed a book at Wal-Mart and he got a new pair of shoes for todays gifts. All of the others he had been opening, so far his fave being Aunt Gina's Duplo blocks! We also got a cookie cake-I LOVE THOSE-and apparently Hollan really does too. He kept asking for more and I gave in. The sugar rush hit shortly after and he almost saw the end of his birthday, as it apporached midnight! I cant believe its been 2 years already-time really does just fly by.

Chrissy took Jace and Aubrey to church, as usual for Wednesday night. I asked her to stay for inspiration, as I finished Aubrey's baptism layout. We are practicing catholisisim (sp) but because I was raised so devout (we were Catholic family of the year in the 80's) I had to have my babies baptized and appointed God-parents. We were all done by the same priest! -Wait, given todays society, I'd better reword that. All of us were baptizied by Father John. And I'd gotten an e-mail from Creative Concepts editor stating that they were creating a book about scrapping your faith and did I want to send somthing in for review. Anyway-she had my e-mail addres entered incorrectly and I didn't get it until a few days ago and the deadline is the 14th! So I've been stressin and with Chrissy's oversight and support, I finished a double layout, and-it's all right. We'll see what they say. I may try to do something else tomorrow-just to increase my chances. Anyone wanna come over and inspire me? The invites open-just reply!

The Picture You've Been Waiting For......

Well-here it is. As the end of Crop*A*Ganza, I had became such good friends with Liz and Tracey that I asked to take their picture together. They-uh-really love each other and displayed it as follows....

What happens at Crop*A*Ganza stays at Crop*A*Ganza! And in my scrapbook! So-JUST KIDDING! I had too! I knew that you'd be scrolling down in anticipation, thinking your computer wasn't pulling the picture up! I adore Liz and Tracey and decided I couldn't out them ;)

I made these amazing candle holders with my kids' pictures on them for Christmas gifts. I still have a few to do, and I have to add the ribbon-but they are too cute! A special thanks to Kristy Woodworth-she is always finding the best for us. She is truly the kindest, most considerate person I know and I am very thankful for her friendship.

Given that she doesn't read my blog and those of you that do have probably not met her yet-I'll move on! I got my matching mini tote today. I have the regular size pink and bblack polka dot tote, then I purchased the large tote for carrying 12x12 paper, and Karen special ordered the mini tote for me. My set is complete and I am a happier person because of it. Jenn Roeder stocks her mini with candy-I may be a copy cat. I was thrilled to have it, yet it didn't end up being my favorite purchase of the night. On my way out the door I passed the As Tech kids tape covers. I was jealous of Jenn H.'s frog-and they also have a pig. You MUST have one. It's a cover for your dispenser. I LOVE IT! I should probably keep it for my stocking, but I may give myself at least 1 early. The little things that make me smile......

Until next time......

P.S. My darling 6 year-olds latest joke- Why do geese fly south for the winter?

Because it's too far to walk!

Monday, December 10, 2007


An extra shout out to the ultimate bus driver. (Sorry I forgot ya). I miss you and Tracey. Thanks for always thinking of me-I'll call you soon! YOU ROCK! Oh-I've got to send you a copy of the Ganza pick-the one of you 2 molesting each other. On second thought-maybe I'll post it!

In every job that must be done......

there is an element of fun! -Thanks Mary Poppins-I LOVE THAT! I think I'm going to post it on my wall. My first favorite quote however-is my own. "God does everything for a reason!" I try to always remember it. For not matter what happens, or what we think should happen-it's all part of God's plan. I do agree with Jodie's blog today and left quite a response to go with it. I have 1 exception. I will continue making new friends! As soon as last week, I began talking on the phone and getting to know a scrap girl better. I have seen her around and talked before, but I am enjoying our growing friendship! Will she one day decide she does not want to be friends anymore? Who knows? Apparently she wouldnt be the first. But, it would be part of God's plan, as is everything, and I would mourn the loss and miss her, maybe blog about how I hated the high school b.s.-and then move on. So-with that being said-I intend to give the silliness no further attention to which it is not worthy! I enjoy meeting new women all of the time! My new BFF may be just around the corner! I bet there's someone sitting out there right now-just wishing they could be my friend! HAHA! I have everything I need-and most everything I could want-because the secret to life is being content with what you have! (I have to keep reminding myself)!

I think I'm rambling on now-with one thought leading me to the next. Keri-give us an update on the job. Jenn R.-where's the daily comments I so look forward to? Krusty-I'm just flattered you read me! Jenn H-welcome, I enjoy your friendship. Jodie-I'm sorry we're sharing the same sucky feelings right now. Gina-see you tomorrow! Anyone else? If I left ya out right now-maybe I'm not aware you read so ya better leave a message and make me aware. *I APPRECIATE YOU ALL!

Until next time........

Friday, December 7, 2007

Hoping This Is It....

So December has already been unbelievable. I'm hoping that one of the following is my tragic event for December and I can now live the remainder of the month peacefully.

My mini-van broke down yesterday afternoon. I was simply turning left and it quit working. We towed it down to my in-laws and when it hit a bump the tow strap ripped off the a/c lines! Brilliant! It's going to Rusty Eck this weekend.

If that's not it, it could be that when I checked our bank accounts online, they were all zeroed out. We have 2 checking, each with a savings and they were all 0, except for the joint account, which was negative. I wrote a check to Applebees when I was 17, for $6. I had ordered a grilled cheese kids meal while with a girlfriend, and this included a small tip. Apparently the check didnt clear. Fast forward 8 years, I am married with 3 children, and the check has occurred intrest, and with fees, I now owe them $981! You read that correctly. They were awarded a garnishment and I had not been notified because of the name change, moving, etc. WTF?!? Bank of America charged us a $100 processing fee, and then all of the bills coming through went against it and occurred fees as well. GAH!

Or it could be that we were going down stairs to play trains and my almost 2 year old tripped and gashed his head open above his lef eye. A trip to the ER and 3 stitches later, he's fussy but hanging in there.

Surely that's it, right? Are your thoughts and prayers with me? It can't be bad karma, as I am living life good-even volunteering! Lord-if there is anything else-please-just make it clear-I cant handle much more. The strain the stress brings into the household is unhealthy!

I am staying positive. Karen called, and I get to cover for Debbie at Scrappin Time Tuesday. I'll be there from 1 til close if you get a chance to stop by. I'd love to see ya. I'll also be there Monday night for my Recipe class-it's never too late to start!

Oh-and the best news of all. I have been published! I sent in a CD calendar I had made to Creative Concepts and it is featured in their upcoming January issue! It's on page 6! Just look me up and I'll give ya an autograph! HA! -See I'm hangin' in myself. It's a little overwhelming but nothin we can't handle. We have our love, and our children, a warm home with food in the cabinets, and TONS of scrapbook supplies! What more does a girl need?!

Until next time......

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

Dreading December......

For a few years now I have dreaded December. Its with good reason. I absolutely LOVE the holidays but just about EVERYTHING horrible that has heppened in my life, happens in December. I was in a bad car accident, I lost a baby, I was hospitalized from domestic abuse- just to name a few! So, needless to say, when December approaches, I get very anxious. According to "The Secret," you bring into your life what you put out. I am therefore trying to think positive. Please keep me in your prayers-at least through the new year!

I have been working on Christmas cards tonight. I didn't anticipate using so muchbbon, so I'll fin riish them another day. I still have several gifts that I'm making that haven't even been started yet! GAH! That doesn't even include preparing for my receipe class and then my layout class! That's why I am currently up and it's almost 2am. I picked up a few things for Christmas. It feels good to be more prepared-it's approaching quickly. We went to see Santa Claus yesterday. It was very traumatic for my almost 2 year-old, my oldest son took great pictures and was a perfect gentleman, meanwhile, my daughter sat upon his lap and expressed that she wants EVERYTHING! Yep.

Please also send extra thoughts and prayers out to my BFF2, Gina. Without divulging too much, I will say that she is going through a VERY difficult, life changing time right now and could use all of your support. I love her dearly, but I cant make all of her choices and I cant take all of the hurt away. Its SO frustrating to be on the sidelines right now. I know that "God does everything for a reason," and it will all be exactly as it should, it just takes time.

Well, I can hear the ferret (the children's adored Christmas present) trying to escape from his cage-so I'd better wrap it up. Hope all of you are well.

Until next time........

Saturday, December 1, 2007

Baby Shoot!

So I had a photo shoot scheduled with my new nephew today. Here is one of my favorites.
I have had an emotional exhausting day. One of my dear friends has decided that we are no longer friends due to silly, high school, misunderstanding drama. We all know how that feels, right? I will miss her, as I have, and it is my hope that everything calms down and we could rekindle. We both have a lot going on in our lives right now, affecting our actions and thoughts at times.
My daughter has been a nightmare today. We've really gotta crack down. She is unbelievable! My greatest challenge. I'm babysitting nephews tonight. My littlest sister is a dancer and I have her son, Braxyn, through the night. Then, Brandis, the one with Tryten, has a massive infection in her right breast. She had been nursing but it has gone up into her arm and she is miserable. Shucks, I'll have to keep the baby for the night! We were having trouble getting ahold of the nurse. But Dr. Craddock ROCKS! So we'll have to suck it up.
We helped Gina's Girl Scout troop make gifts today. They will be received at the Festival of Giving next week. That was fun. Savannah stayed to play and we had an eventful day. Gina came to hang out tonight, that was fun. Chris' grandma will be staying with us through the year. She has a few habits I'll have to break '0 but I love having her here. Gina and I were at the Derby Wal-Mart til 2 am and I got her a stocking.
The crop was fun. I didn't get a lot done, as ladies had questions and needed help. But it was productive, and I love being needed. Jennifer H. showed me how to make a sliding card-that was way worth it on its own. THANKS AGAIN JENN! Calvin, Karens husband was with us for the night, Karen's been sick. She has a lot of great new stuuf in that I'm anxious to play with. We are all very lucky in the local scrap wprld. AMAZING women have done an AMAZING job of taking care of us. Debbie, Steff, and Sarah are priceless, I've been to Scrap Funattic since the day it opened and couldn;t live without them. And don't forget Peggy Engel from Hen Feathers. They prefer quilting, but shes the classic mom, and very sophisticated. I dont stop by often enough but she said they;ll be getting new scrap stuff soon too. All of her paper is buy one get one! And Karen is doing a great job getting started. I'm trying to help-as I love everything ivolved in scrap world and it feels good just to sit amongst the stuff! So-THANK YOU SCRAP STORE OWNERS! YOU MAKE KEEP US HAPPY and we know it's a lot of work. I think I speak of many when I share my gratitude.
I'm gonna go snuggle that wee one now. And sniff him! Yep-you gotta love the smell of new born babies!
Until next time.....
P.S. Thank you to all that post comments. I really appreciate feeling loved. Welcome Jodie! I look forward to getting to know you better. How's your nose?!

Thursday, November 29, 2007


Ok-I'm not trying to brag-BUT-I have a REALLY nice 2 1/2 carat wedding ring that my husband suprised me with. It is my prized possession. So-why is it that it is all of the sudden rotting my finger off! Yep-about a month ago it started drying out my skin under my ring. I kept drying and stuff and it got worse. I had a lizard finger! Red-maybe even a little fluid-OMG! I haven't changed my eating habits, personal habits-nothing. I switched it to the opposite hand and within 4 days it was doing the same! GAH! Is it a sign? ;) What is a girl to do? I'm going to be making doctor calls and investigating now. I haven't worn it for 2 weeks and I MISS IT!

In other news-my atempt to be funny about Jennifers dinner party hurt her feelings. She has now extended a sympathy invite for her next one-which I will gladly accept! HA! All right-enough with the jokes. I truly was just trying to be funny about it since it's gotten a lot of hype amongst scrappers. I am sorry Jennifer.

Now for my exciting event of the day. Well-there's 2. First-I picked up a few hours at Scrappin Time in Derby tonight. I always enjoy being there and being surronded by stuff! My favorite part is the women that come in-talking and getting to know new friends. Jennifer H came in tonight and we talked for awhile. Karen is always getting new things. If you havent checked it out-you're MISSING OUT! #2 My BFF2 Gina found my blog-THROUGH JENNIFERS! I made the list-and that MAKES MY DAY!

Until next time......


Oh yea-there's a crop tomorrow night from 6 to midnight in Derby. I'll be finishing Christmas cards. Come join me! Yes-YOU! (Call to sign up-788-2821, you get a shopping dicount too)!

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Catchin Up

Back tracking a little I realized that I missed Jennifer Roeders dinner party. My sister had just had her baby and I was just too tired. Ok-truth be told-I wasnt invited-but I know it just wasnt the same without me there. Im sure all of her guests just sat around and complained about how I should be there! HA!

I never added that Thankful list! I am so blessed this year! I am trying to be thankful for just about everything-from the food I shouldn't eat to those of you who read my blog (REALLY)! I am extra thankful for my beloved scrubby and 3 amazing children-my now extended family-especially my sis's and nephews (I dont have any nieces). I am thankful for my pets-and scrproom with all my stuff-my rockin' mini van and my big fat wedding ring! THANK YOU LORD! My life really is full!

I've had a busy morning-cleaning and blog stalking! If I dont have your personal info. please e-mail me at so that I may add you to my address book. My Christmas cards are gonna be cute-DON'T MISS OUT! Hehe! Be sure to include your full name, addy, phone # and bday-oh and e-mail.

Until next time.......


Wednesday, November 21, 2007


I am trying to get pictues on here. I'm new to this post sight. I just remembered that I let Chrissy take my latest cd containing pictures of the newest family member. But I've got a few others for your enjoyment. First up-Chros and I at the Dierks Bentley concert. Next -Jace and Hollan playing in the leaves. I wanted to play too but there weren't enough. I want the big crispy orange ones. I think I was a full yard down the street........hmm......

Then there's Brandis and Stryker just a few days before he entered the world. Tryten. That's his name. I forgot to mention that! He weighed 7.7 and was 20 inches long. Cute as can be. I'm a proud aunt-can you tell? Aubrey and I can't wait til Brandis goes back to work. We'll see Styker and the baby almost everyday. I'm going to be providing daycare! I'm priviledged to do so.

ARGH! I can't get them to turn. I'm so computer challenged. I dont know how to add my favorite blogs either! HELP!


Sometimes life just zooms by. I LOVE IT! I love being busy and loving life.

I'll back track a little since its been a few days. I have every intention of blogging regularly. You may understand my delay after reading. Grab a slice of pumpkin pie and read on.....

Late Friday night I started to finish the kits I've been working on for my receipe class at Scrappin' Time. I may have mentioned that I met several AMAZING women at the November class, some of which rewuested kits from my October class. Anyways-I was finishing those and my phone rang. It was Brandis' boyfrind Josh calling. (She's the pregnant one)! He said Brandis was leaking more than she had been and expressed his concern. He wanted to verify that a mucus plug can only be lost once, so that it must be something further. Brandis was not concerned. He called back about 60 seconds later. We discussed the positives and negatives of going in to be checked, which Brandis was completely against. I asked him to ask her if she'd like me to come over and check everything out. YES! So I loaded up fairly quickly and the phong rang as I got there. We had a gush of fluid to the floor. Her water has DEFINATELY broken!! I helped her up and cleaned up and we got her dressed and Stryker ready. Stryker was suppossed to go to Josh's sisters house but she was having issues-involving the police. Stryker was going to stay with Uncle Chris. Brandis was so calm. Josh was so anxious! I took Stryker to my house and with a quick change of clothes (I didn't want to look like white trash) I was on my way. Josh and I were there with her in the interm room. They were trying to determine if indeed her water had broken. HELLO! I said, aren't the gush of fluid and continuous contractions enough?!? NO! The speculum was mentioned and Brandis refused. Her exam on Thursday had been tramatic and she did not want another one. Josh and I made jokes to make her relax. You know-this guy was rated 4 out of 5 stars on vaginal exams-9 out of 10 women recommend him-and so on. She complied and we proceeded. Of course, it testes positive for amniotic fluid and we were moving to a more permanent room by about 2:30 am! Now mom, Brayla and Maria (Josh's mom) could join us. She was in labor for hours. I tried to go to Brayla's house and lay down for an hour but it was no use. Mom was out with all her meds so she went home to bed. At 7am she was getting her epidural and if labor was not progressing she was going to start pitocin. The baby was decelerating, but labor progressed. She was dialiating well and could feel every bit of it. She was dialted to 6 and the baby was at 0 position when we were asked to leave the room. They were trying to put on internal monitors, rushing around and in less than 4 minutes we wre back in with the baby BOY! He was not breathing! On the apgar scale of 1-10, he was pushing to get a 1 after 5 minutes. I touched his cheek as they checked his air. Meanwhile-I commanded mom to be by Brandis. Brayla had diligently held her hand for hours but mom was back and Brandis needed her. The babis hands and feet were still blue and white. It scared me and I prayed. Just as soon as everything had happened, it settled down. The room was cleaned up and I left. Chris was being well-an ass-and I had to get home for him to go to work. HELLO!?! A baby is being born here-and he's my nephew.

He was upset about having Stryker-without being asked-and I am still upset at him several days later. I called a sitter over so that I could nap. I rested about 1 1/2 hours while they want to the park. God send-thank you Abby! I had a class that afternoon. My "Pick of the Patch" double layout. It was filling up and I had to prepare. The sitter had to leave so I begged Chrissy to come over. Reluctantly, she came. Another God send. If it weren't for her I don't know how I'd have made it! THANK YOU! Then-I was late. Karen wanted to talk with me. She was upset that I presumed things that she felt I shouldn't. I respect her and can't stand if she looks cross at me-so I cried! It had been such a long, emotional ordeal-I couldn't help it. She gave me the hugs I needed and we straightened things out. Home to releave Chrissy. She is now entitled to anything in my scraproom, as I am endebted to her. I payed the first sitter! Time to clean up and load up. Stryker had yet to meet his baby brother and I hadn't held him! After coaxing, Chrissy joined us. It went well. He is a true joy. We grabbed Arbys on the way home and Shrek the Third. I was out within 5 minutes of the movie starting! I did not sleep well though-I ws so overwhelmed.

Chris and I tried to talk about things for the next 2 days, to no avail. He makes me so angry sometimes. I don't feel I should have to 'ask' for anything-let anyone everything! He thinks it's respectful to do so. ARGH!

We kept Stryker until Monday evening. It was quite a lot to handle but I was glad to help. We decided that I'm going to stay home with the kids and do my scrap and card stuff. I sent out letters to have my cards carried at a few stores so hopefully that will go well. I am getting ahead for classes at Scrappin' Time. My December receipe cards are complete and up for display. I stole a bunch of pictures from my mom today to use for a nastalgic (sp) Christmas layout. I'm simmering down about Chris. Love conquers all, right?

We're fairly prepared for Thanksgiving. I'm making the deviled eggs tonight and picking up pies from Spears tomorrow.

My mom stopped by tonight unannounced. We were just cleaning out drawers and putting up clothes so it was a mess. I hate it whn my mom sees my house messy! I want her to know that I love to live clean and organized. It's just that I have 3 kids...and a husband! She gave the kids Color Wonder packahes, and they have been happily coloring away for awhile now. Hollan's asleep. The greatest part? She wrote me a letter. I was in tears as I read her expressing her gratitude for me and my kids. It's such an amazing feeling to be appreciated-and I am extra thankful for that letter! It's just what I needed! On the envelope she drew a hand turkey! It's too cute and now resides on my fridge-surely to show up on my Thanksgiving layouts for this year!
I'm going to try to post pics. I've never done it. I'll post my thankful list soon too. I have SO musch to be thakful for!

Thursday, November 15, 2007

Waiting for a baby and life thoughts....

So after I was feeling so horrible I thought I should brinstorm some life changes. Ya know-things that can improve quality. Here's what I cam up with. I want to try Steff's raved about budget. I want to exercise. (EEK-I dont even like to think about it). I want to join a church group. I'll make a list of the things wonderful about me! That's it. That's all I've got. The budget will be great for our whole family. Exercising will make me feel better in general. We have a Y membership that goes unused for $50 a month! And then I want to join a church group to meet new people and make new friends. It's a goal of mine to form closer relationships and it seems a good place to start. I love meeting people. And who knows-I may have a new BFF (or 2) just waiting! Then the list. I think it would help to feel better about me.

The baby thing? My darling sister Brandis is over 9 months pregnant now. She's the sister just below me in the line. We've had our differences in the past-a lot of them. But we've com a LONG way. We are very close now and I love it. I have a special relationship with each of my sisters, but because of Brandis and I's horrible past, our relationship is extra special. She calls me. She calls to ask about meds for her 2 year old. She calls if she hears a song on the radio that I like. She calls when she's pulling her hair out from frustration. I love that she leans on me and needs me and trusts me. It is an amazing feeling and I'm grateful. So-she's VERY pregnant and uncomfortable. She was leaking and went to St. Joe. I think its just her mucus plug, but she has word sensitivity so we don't talk about it! Shes in even more pain from the exam. She swears she'll never let a male gyno touch her as long as she lives! Her contractions are strong but not regular so we'll see. I can't wait to be an aunt again. We think it's a boy but it's dad wants a girl. We'll see!

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Feeling much better now.

I found out that we were good to go. If it weren't for that owners wife bee-otch we'd be elated riding back exhausted right now. Oh well. God does everything for a reason. I always say that and need to remember it. I have a good heart and a lot to offer and anyone would be lucky to be my friend. That's the advise I would give to myself at least!

I'm going to watch 1408 with my beloved scrubyy now (thanks to Jana for that). The sun rises and sets with him. His comforting arms are awaiting.

Can't remember the last time I liked myself less....

I'm at home now, on the computer (obviously), and not on the way to see Garth with Jennifer. It was a great plan. When we won Kenny Chesney tickets there were extra spots on the bus from people who didn't show. So they could be filled by anyone. I thought it a great plan to be there and be ready and sneek on! I spoke with Carol Hughes Saturday afternoon and informed her of this and she said, "Sure, Awesome!" and that she'd let her boss know. Well-usually I have "Brynn Charm" but today ot wasn't there. Looking amazing with stellar make-up, black cowboy hat and bling cowgirl boots, Jennifer picked me up. I was confident, with fully packed cooler in tote. And then it happened. The bossy bitch I've never heard of put a giant VETO on my plan and sent us home. Can you imagine how humiliating the ride home was for me? I am in tears as I type. Jennifer, being as great as she is, said that it's was no big deal and tried to comfort me. But, who's she kidding? I'd like to admit it was a great plan and be optomistic and say whatever-but I cant. I am absolutely embarrassed. It became worse after I read Jennifer's blog. Christie Welch and I used to be very close and it has made me sad lately to think of her and how things were, not knowing what went wrong. And she left a comment that just kicked me in the gut. I can just imagine everyone talking and laughing about how stupid I am.

Ok-so my vulnerability is showing and I'm rambling and I'm going to let it be. I've always admired Jennifer Roeder and wanted to be closer to her and other scrpbook girls-new friends right? It would have been a great opportunity and I'm just sad. I suppose there's underlying issues there as well. Women I really loved as friends lately have distanced, and it's overwhelming. Yet I dont want to act like I'm in high school or show my insecuritites. I'm probably just making it worse as I type. I'll be on the scrapbook friends blacklist!

Until next time.....

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Apparently My First Post

I have blogged before, yet I cant seem to find it at this point. Oh well. I've now begun this one and plan to update it regularly.

At this time tomorrow, I should be returning from the Garth Brooks concert with the fabulous Jennifer Roeder, if Garth hasn't swept her into his arms and onto his tour bus-to practice making babies! I've adored her since I met her and its going to be great to get to know her better. And who better a companion for such a feat? We're sneeking on the bus at 3:30. Wish us luck!

The kids were extra cranky today. I yelled more than a few times, and more than I should have. I'm pretty sure a cuss word slipped out too. All I ever wanted to be was a mother, and now than I am, it is harder than I ever thought. I love my children more than anything in the world but I run short on patience sometimes. It is the virtue I always lacked. I used to pray for more patience, but God kept giving me more to be patient about! That's how he works-I should have known. So-I'm feeling a little guilty over it all tonight. What else can I say? I avoided beating them, so that's all that matters. ;)

I am now the proud owner of the raspberry polka dot tote! It will soon be followed with the raspberry pola dot 12x12 bag. Amazing! I transfered everything into it tonight. It makes me happy.

Chris just splurged for Ted's Montana Grill takeout-so I'm happily full as well. I also have an Italian Ramono Cheese Ball made up from Tastefully Simple. If I were on death row, it would be part of my last meal! Delish!

I'm working all day at Scrappin' Time in Derby Thursday. I absolutely LOVE being in the environment and meeting everyone. I can't wait for that too. If you haven't taken the time to stop in there-you must!

Blessings. B.